Before we went to Organ Stop Pizza with Lily Thursday, we went to Kathryn's. Amy, Kathryn and I wrote a statement for the November ballot stating our opinion of the importance of amending the Arizona Constitution to state the that in Arizona,
"Only a union of one man and one woman shall be valid or recognized as a marriage in this state." Kathryn's friend and her husband have put forth much time and effort to get others to take action, so Kathryn asked us to do this with her. We wrote a short and sweet statement that we felt really made some good points. Doing this got me thinking about all the issues like this. So often I think, Oh, let someone who knows what they're doing take care of it. Or, It's not my responsibility. Or even, What do I have to offer? And then I remember something I once heard, "If not you, then who; if not now, then when." I realized that if everyone had the same attitude as me, society could be worse off than it is now. So thank you to
Marily (Kathryn's friend) and her husband and Kathryn for giving me the opportunity to realize the importance of being involved. Hopefully, this wasn't the last time I attempt to get my voice out there.
I had the opportunity to do fun things this weekend. Friday night I played
Bunco with
Beka and then Jason and I watched Dan in Real Life. I heard it was good, but I really liked it. I don't want to say it was super good, because then it might find you
disappointed. I was a little sleepy through it, but I don't remember there being much language (it was PG-13, so it wasn't exempt from it, but it was pretty clean) and I don't recall any scenes that made me feel awkward. Plus, the music was really great. Saturday afternoon I played
Bunco again, with my new
Bunco group. It was fun seeing and visiting with people from high school that I haven't seen since high school.
Saturday afternoon Lily had a
syncro swim meet. By the way, her and her partner got 2nd. Yeah Lily! Before going, I called the 1st Counselor in our Bishopric to see who was speaking in Sacrament. Long story short, there was only one speaker. The 2
nd, had fallen through the cracks (not literally). The poor 1st Counselor sounded
devastated. So I did what anyone would do (right?), I volunteered to speak. I actually have been secretly wanting to speak in Sacrament for quite some time. For the 20 months or so I've been doing the bulletin, I've been waiting for them to tell me I'm the lucky winner.
There are a few reasons I was wanting to speak. First, I have only spoke once in this ward and it was a disaster. Well, whenever I speak, it usually ends up as a disaster. I have all these great thoughts in my head, they never come out the right way, I cry because I'm nervous, then I cry because I'm crying and then I squeak through the rest of my talk, sniffling obnoxiously into the microphone. In a way, I wanted to see if I would ever be able to overcome this. And the only way to know is to speak. I also just love preparing for a talk. I get to read so many powerful quotes, ponder wonderful scriptures and feel the promptings of the Spirit.
Anyway, when I told Bro.
Bevell I'd speak, I'm pretty sure he didn't think I was serious. I was and I was excited for the opportunity to serve. After all, I've been asking for lots of blessings lately and clearly I needed to have the opportunity to do certain things so that the desires of my heart would be granted (Kathryn, when can I watch your girls? :)). Sometimes we have to be willing to make our sacrifices BEFORE we are granted our blessings. Plus, I usually work Saturday night, but for some reason I had energy and motivation to get my stuff done Friday during Clara's nap (trust me, it is very rare for me to work Friday afternoon unless I absolutely have to). What else was I going to do?
Back to the talk (yes, it gets better). Saturday evening I had my topic and spent a few hours gathering quotes, scriptures and trying to determine an outline for my talk. Nothing was coming. Normally if I have a topic I can go on for ever. I started getting sleepy and I decided to "rest". Ha ha, yeah right. I fell asleep, Jason carried me to bed and I woke up at 7am with almost nothing ready. At 7:45am I received another frantic phone call. My topic was actually what the other speaker had been assigned. I got my new topic and at first, I was like, this isn't even a "real" talk. There seemed to be very little doctrinal substance, more of reminiscing about history and bearing a testimony. But I prayed and imagine that, everything all of a sudden came together. It was a true testimony of how the Spirit can guide your preparation for such a thing.
We got to church about 2 minutes before it started, but only because Jason helped me so much. He made me breakfast in bed, watched Clara all morning and got her and her bag all ready for Church. Oh, he put her down for a nap and copied the bulletin too. I was a little
embarrassed when Bro.
Bevell relayed this story to the congregation because I saw it as a way to show the Lord that I will continue to do the things He's asked as he blesses us with the things we need. The opportunity was a blessing for me, not just an attempt to ease the apparent burden this put on Bro.
Bevell.
Anyway, the deliverance of my talk was great. I didn't cry once (not that it's bad to cry in a talk, but when I do, it's more because of nervousness, not the feelings of the Spirit, so it's
embarrassing). That may be because I read my whole talk (I had a good excuse not to memorize it), but either way, I felt like my talk, for the first time in my life, went well.
And had I known Bro.
Bevell was going to mention the situation, I would've shared the top 5 reasons it's good to find out on Saturday night you're speaking in Church:
5. I wasn't worried about preparing a talk during the week
4. No time to get nervous
3. Who starts preparing before Saturday night anyway?
2. I got breakfast in bed
1. With little time to prepare, there was no time to memorize so I was justified in reading my talk, word for word. :)